im so stressed up nowadays many things running trough my head . i cant help it but get this shit off my chest .


first i wanna talk about sum1 i loved most but not being there for me when i needed him most . he always say he's a changed man for real but ended up in a same situation again . u always says u love us the most but what happen now ? u should know yourself better . sometimes i've always dreamt of taking care n being with u always but u r the one who always put yourself astray from us . y ? y are u doin this to yourself ? i dont understand . but i ' ll forgive u no matter what cuz u've helped me alot from a moment of going to rtc u pull me out of my trouble by standing firm against the law n fight for my innocence even u know im guilty . but look at what u did . thank u so much . u've been giving me advices and stuffs but u never apply those advices to yourself . i was happy
to see u change even for a moment . but i dont blame u for all these . but blame myself cuz not being able to be there for u . u were always alone and there's no one by your side to guide u through . u were always alone n theres no one to check on your daily meal your whereabouts n so...im sorry . i feel im responsible for all this .

next thing is ... the moment aniqah is back with me ..my frens felt that i neglected them n would come n look for them only when i needed them but thats not true . somethings are better off alone yeah alone . so to all my friends out there im sorry if u feel otherwise ...i will make it up to u guys not now,tomorrow nor this month i guess . till im fully heal and my heart is all patch up again then i'l be back but i cant promise who knows i maybe going to prison or maybe doing my diploma or maybe serving my ns who knows the choice is mine to make .